So Bad that you are confused where to start.
So Bad that when you do start, and for the next 15x theraefter, you continually fall on your face having to pull yourself up to try again.
So Bad that when you stare at the desk where you will do your greatest work in anything else you’ll shy away because it makes you feel like crap.
And then do it and keep doing it until your bad becomes someone else’s good and then get bad at it again as you reach for the next level.
It’s not easy, but it’s worth it.